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[bellechose]

to further avoid my massive amounts of work, i've decided to update. there is so much pressure in my head that it feels like it is going to pop like a balloon. i've been in school for about 4-5 weeks now and things aren't going as i planned. i've been doing miserably. a week ago, i had 4 midterms, my relationship with david ended abruptly, and my car got towed. it's enough for anyone to contemplate suicide or running away. well, maybe just more of the later - i'm not a big fan of suicide. i'm seriously at the end of my rope, just fed up with everything and drained of energy, something is bleeding me dry of... something. i feel like nothing will get any better... really just hoping it would slightly.

wow. writing this all down isn't helping. everything seems so dark. i can't shake off everything and go on like i usually do.